well i been gone a while, and during that time i was gone, life threw a fast ball at me, my 4 year relationship ended, i was kicked out and to the curb, and lost my job. but with the time i was given had my heart broken, i came to the realization it could of been a lot worst, that things happen for a reason and the sooner we let go and take that time to grow, and move forward. ANd because i took that time to slow down, and see my mistakes, and just think on what i want and need out of life, i found my new courage. I now have a new places, yeah not as glamorous and polish as my old house, but its something i can call my own, i have a new job setting weddings, and i put myself back into school to get my massage therapy license, which was something i always wanted to do. even thought im single, it really isnt as painful as a i thought, yeah it has its moments, but at less now i can focus on my life and take it slower, focus on new goals a new career, and just let life happen as it goes. The lesson in all this for me was to stay strong, even though i stumbled, and fell a lot , some times you have to get back up, smile, laugh, and just tell life to bring it.